Today my family did something we rarely ever do (unless someone is sick), and that was nothing. Well, kinda nothing. I worked this morning and Stetson had his swimming class with Brad, but after that we all went home, napped and then sat around and read or watched movies or colored. It was amazing.
This might not sound like that amazing of a thing, but for me it is. Immediately after getting off work I'm trying to think of what we can do as a family. Go on a walk? head to the mall? grab lunch? But Stetson got his first ear infection this week (and he made it a double - go big or go home, right?), plus it was raining, so that ruled out a lot of options for family fun (how lame does that sound?? :) Anywho, after nagging Brad about something to do he actually explained to me that it might be nice to just do nothing. Stetson still needs to recover (although he is SO much better than yesterday - thank you antibiotics!) but the weather also isn't accommodating. So I turned on a movie, cuddled up with my almost 2 year old and read my book. I have not felt so relaxed in weeks.
Thats the problem with me, I feel the need to constantly "go". It's no surprise that my son's first, and most favorite word is "go". I need stimulation around every corner, I need stuff to do, a calendar filled, when I don't have these things I feel like I'm not doing all I can do with my family. I'm not filling in the spaces how I should. But when I do have my calendar filled I feel overwhelmed and exhausted and I'm not the happy mom that I am striving to be when I fill that calendar in the first place.
My baby Godzilla:
Marrying Brad was a wise decision for many reasons, but the fact that he loves to slow things down so much and I love to keep things in constant motion is really good for both of us. I get him off the couch, but he gets me to just sit back and relax when I need it most.
I am who I am, I have always been like this, I don't remember a time where I would have prefferred staying in to going out. But now, as a mom, I need to learn the idea of "dialing it back". I put too much pressure on myself to constantly entertain my loved ones (and myself), that if I just take the time, every now and then, to sit back and let everyone around me just relax, I might find the energy for my 4 mile run to the grocery store, followed by the park, followed by working, followed by bath and bed time. I can't ever just sit around, but being told to do it every now and then is something I need to learn to accept, because after the long cuddle I had this afternoon I feel like I just visited a Zen Garden.
Here's a pic at my life BEFORE I was a mom and had to slow down, you know when I was traveling to a different country every 4 days and had no plan. Happy to have done that when I was much younger :)
On that note, Aquababies was a huge succes and I can't wait to get some pics of it soon (father and son singing and swimming together? Yes, please!)
Sorry I don't post like I used to, I'm just too busy being, um, busy :)
Peace, love and the wheels on the bus . . .
Brigid, Brad, Stetson and Zeki